Never thought my life would be this way.

Never thought I would run out of words to say.

Never thought I would shed tears all day.

One minute happy, the next minute sad, I just want the joy that I once had.

Never thought I would feel all alone, never pictured my childen being gone.

When I walk into their rooms my eyes well up eith tears. I thought they would be here for many, many years.

Ones voice all of the time I hear, but the others I just see the writing and not their voice.

Silently the doors are closed on the laughter that was here, so now all I have are mixed emotions and tears. ©2021

THE SOUL OF MY HEART

Hurting inside, tears I’ve cried streamed down the soul of my heart. Emotions of words filled with anger, and hurt filled with hate poured out from the soul of my heart.

Not knowing what to think anymore, and not knowing what to do anymore poured out of the soul of my heart.

Almost gave up on the one that I have always loved, poured out from the soul of my heart.

I can’t give up, and I can’t give in, I have to keep moving forward so that joy can be poured out of the soul of my heart.

Thinking to myself about all of the stuff I’ve been through, and all of the stuff that I am going through almost made me want to take my own life.

Past failures arise as words are spoken harshly from the lips that owns them splits a soul in two. Words fired back because there was nothing else to do.

Abuse tried to creep in, but it was quickly extinguished from the violent one whose afraid of bars being slammed shut in their face.

No, not afraid of the attacker, stood her ground bold as a lioness protecting her cubs.

The soul of my heart is right now at peace, so therefore she is going to rest her tired eyes until the new sunrise. ©2021